Sigh....

The hasty movement of time indicates and delineates many things to me. It's somehow horrifying to know that something as latent as time exists and is faster than lighting. Consider it as my personal point of view, the feeling of helpless or being unable to make something turns better is showing its presence to me day by day, or worst, its starting to be part of my choice. Time is really too fast. Flash. That's the speed. However, what makes it even faster is that it seems to be slow to everyone, causing one to think that one has plenty of time and thus, tends to waste it. That is what that increase the speed as well as the cruelty of time.
I have this feeling is because I reluctantly but surely feel that I am running out of time. I refuse to allow this idea owns me because I can't accept this fact. Of course, I am trying and urging myself to do my very best with all the obligations around me, suffocating and restricting my every move, directing me onto a narrow path.
Take a close look into my life and you will notice the main elements in me now: studies and basketball. Studies is the main and utmost important task which requires and consume lots of my attention and energy. About basketball, I am having this competition on the 12th of April. To be honest, the outcome of this competition won't be as satisfying as I lied to myself. I know that but many friends of mine are involved and I can't just ignore their request for my involvement. Consider it as my last year in school, I decided to give it my best shot. But in the process of the preparation and training, I find it rather time consuming and the worst is that the time is not consumed in a good manner. Wasted. The time is wasted. I am saying this because basketball, as everyone knows, is a team sport. You basically need 5 players on the floor for the game to commence, not counting the bench players which would sum up to 12. Now the problem that is really causing a serious headache is that the member of the team don't show subordination and discipline. They do not train well, do not show up for practise, do not take heed to advices and they think they are skilful. So every single one of these things sum up and produces nothing but failure. We will definitely lose but, as I mentioned above, I am just doing this under the request of my friends. But I can't deny that I keep impugning over my decision. The question about my realisation of failure ahead of me and yet I am still wasting time to achieve success keeps pondering in my head, unwilling to make a leave. And so, the question still remains, why am I doing this??????

That's one of the thing that is bothering me for the mean while.

Talking about social circle, I admit that I have lost a friend that was once one of my best friends as I considered. But somehow, my involvement in various aspects has placed me in a situation where I tend to neglect him. At the end, he left me without leaving any notes or saying goodbye. Well, I consider it as a basic manner when you are leaving some place without notifying the owner and yet he failed to do so. I place my friends at a high level in my life. Losing one without me knowing it really hurts me a lot. I keep thinking about him, the factors that contribute to the happening of this event. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months have passed without me not thinking about him. As a candid statement, I tormented myself a lot. But in the end, the words of God are the best. I was reading Proverbs until I realised a verse that relieved me a lot. The verse said, 1)how long will scoffers delight in their scoffing and fools hate knowledge? (Proverbs 1:22) 2) because I have called and you refused, have stretched out my hand and no one heeded (Proverbs 1:24) 3) I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when panic strikes you (Proverbs 1:26) 4) Then they will call upon me, but I will not answer; they will seek me diligently but will not find me. ( Proverbs 1:28).
And so, a remedy presented itself right in front of me. I grinned at this verse, thanking this awesome God at the same time. Amen... This is what I will do when he seeks my help in the time to come....

Academically, the exam is arriving next week. Study... Study... Study... I think that's all I have to do. Hard-working, diligent, perpetual efforts... Though it seems quite simple, following all these virtues is definitely something tough....

And so, I end this post with my blessings to those who are facing the same predicaments as I am, hoping that they would get their own solutions for their respective problems...

Inexplicable

Things we encounter... Some we understand, some we don't... Out of curiosity, we seek for the answer... Some spent years looking for one answer and yet failed in the end...
Such failure will result in desperation or self-condemnation... Some couldn't take it so they commit suicide... Some are so disappointed that they give up hope on everything... And thus, everything ends in a sad ending...

Are we one of them????
You see, there are some things or phenomena which couldn't be explained by human beings. We thought we were smart and intelligent which at the end resulted in obstinacy. We were blinded by our intelligence and knowledge. We thought we were above the others and so answers are everywhere. We thought wrong.

Those things which even the smart ones couldn't explain, those are the INEXPLICABLE.
I am not trying to stand here and tell everyone that I have enough experience to share this but I did meet some of this "questions" in my life...

Sometimes you are as if in a lost... why???
No matter how hard you work for it or how good you are, you still can't get it... why???
Some people they make their own reasons or philosophy just to cover their mistakes... why????
Some people would willingly show a fake smile to you everyday... why???
People love money a lot.. why???
I would rather read or do other things than to read a Bible... why???
Some friends are able to just ignore you for as long as it is... why???
Some people wouldn't even take or consider your advise... why???
Some people only think for their own benefits... why???
Some people think they are right in any way... why???
Some people would sacrifice friendship for love.. why???

well.. actually there are more.. but it's so happen I can't figure it out instantaneously... Some of you might think that the above questions have certain answers... but to me, those answers are simply... unimportant... Some things, even when you have an answer, you won't be satisfied with it, or, that answer will lead to another question....

Those.. are the inexplicable....

March Holiday

So, anything special or unique for this one-week-holiday??
I guess not...
Owning to the fact that I have my obligations to tie me down, other plans of entertainment and leisure would have to be put aside. My main objectives for this week is to study, especially for my Chemistry and Ekonomi Asas. For now, these two subjects are my weakness and of course, I will have a remedy to fix things up.
Apart from academic obligations, my ping pong competition, which is just around the corner, has also kept my feet on a busy pace. Training is all that requires but at a high demand. The ideal way of training is everyday but sometimes, laziness and other things which requires my attention caused me to neglect such discipline training. Feel remorse and sad but can't seek for a solution.

Consider it a personal point of view of mine but don't get the wrong idea that this week would be full of pain and agony for me. No! I won't let myself suffer. For me, it's also a week and, a better word, opportunity for me to foster good friendship with other people. I planned to do some studying in the library for about 4 hours. In that way, I would be able to revise my homework as well as have some interaction with my friends. Somehow, studying is indeed tiring and boring but they can be quite pleasant if there is someone there to accompany you. Try having a friend beside you, studying seriously together. The feeling is totally different. But, of course, the criteria of friends must be of good quality or at least willing to sacrifice their time to get a better result.

I guess these two aspects would be more than enough to occupy the whole week. At the mean time, I did wonder what my other friends are up to. Some of them are busy with the concert which is to be held in Pai Teik. Well, unfortunately I show no interest in it so there won't be my share there. There are also some who have totally disappeared into thin air. Well, I don't really care about that. =.=""

Exam is approaching in a fortnight. I don't really have any request for myself, just that I hope and pray I can do my best. As for my parents, they not pester me a lot as they, too, demands the best from me. That's all. Thus, as a whole, I don't really have any external pressure pressing my entire body. I just study for my personal interest and for my future.

I guess that's all for this week.. Stay tuned...

Lameness RULE

Today, a new kingdom is born . The politics of this kingdom is simple. It consists of a king and a general. That's all. Simple?? Yes. Useless?? Definitely not as this kingdom has gained many territories in just one day.

Introducing, the unique, the powerful, the mighty kingdom: LAMENESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well~ The name of that kingdom is Lameness. Everything is built on lameology. The king is known as Lame King and the general is Lame General. Despite the peculiar name, the king is wise and brutal. He would seize any chances available to conquer a nation. The nations which I meant are among us. The nations which I really meant are the emotions, situation, circumstances and outcome of a certain event. Whenever something is wrong, Lame King would be there, with Lame General at his side to command and conquer.

Never!!! Never underestimate his power and wisdom for either you or I would be conquered easily in a swift. You might say that I have overestimated his power and abilities. Thus, let me share with you an experience whereby I lost everything I have to Lame King.

ONCE upon a time, in a far far away country, known as Malaysia, in a small small city, known as Penang, in a very very small town, known as Nibong Tebal, Lame King decided to appear once more in public after being in solitude for a considerable duration. The first target of his is in SMKSN. To his opinion, this place, or known as "school" by the earthly being, has lots of potential for him to establish his lame policy. He likes it. Oh yes, he likes it a lot. As long as lame blood is running in his lame veins,lame artery and lame capillary, he was determined to conquer this planet Earth and make it into planet LAME. Having this idea in his mind always made him smile lamely.

And so, after waiting and waiting for the correct opportunity, he discovered that a young innocent boy who has the tendency to be his second Lame General was in the school. Never miss an opportunity, he said to himself. Thus, he dispatched his best lame troops, known as the Unbeatable Lames, to follow and extract information concerning this young boy.

Reports were quick to his knowledge. He found out that not long after there would be an event where lame beings will be running and jumping around on a green carpet. He also knew that the lame Sun would be there as an audience. By knowing that, he was eager to prove his power and might to the lame Sun. So, without further consideration, he called out for his general, "Lame General, I, the Lame King, has a lame task for lame you. Will lame you accept it with lameness?" " I will be lame to accept it, my all mighty lame Lord," answered the general lamely. And so, he rode his black lame horse out to accomplish his task. For your information, the task was to conquer this boy's heart and turn it into lameness. The general knew that this is something simple which he would carry out easily and claim his rewards. He grinned lamely.

He, then, went into the compounds of the school. He felt happy at his first glance. The weather was lamely hot. He was happy. Earthly beings were sitting in the canteen doing nothing but feeling boring and lame. He was happy. Everything seemed suitable for him to take action but he reminded himself what the Lame King ordered him to do. He seek for the boy and spotted him immediately.

He saw the boy going to the opposite side of the green carpet and spoke to a teacher who was in a lame mood. He was again, happy. He listened to boy attentively, surprised that the boy didn't notice his presence. He then discovered that the boy was supposed to do some running competition today but the teacher didn't allow him to because there was a substitution made. The other guy who was substituting him didn't attend any practises or any tryouts. The boys felt down and disappointed. The general was happy to know that cause these were the important elements for lameness.

Not long after that, the boy went to take a white box and a rectangular box. The general was curious were those boxes, will they jeopardise his mission???

His worries was replaced with satisfaction after knowing that the white and rectangular box consisted only of food and drinks which Earthly beings needed for their body, like a battery.

Suddenly, another Earthly being stood in the boys way. The general found out that that being was a woman. The "woman" ordered the boy to return the boxes because it wasn't the correct time to consume this food. The boy was surprised and started to explain that other people were doing the same thing. He also said that he has pictures of people eating as a prove. Then, the woman gave him a fake smile and returned to her original expression. The boy felt disgusted and walked off, without showing anything to her. The general felt anger and outraged within the boy. He was again, happy. Things are proceeding as planned.

The boy finished up his "battery" and went playing basketball with his other friends. Lame General waited with endurance for everything to over because he understood that the boy loved that game a lot.

After about 3 hours, the Lame General thought that it was time to act. He took out his lame sword and ran into war inside the boy.

After a bloody war, the general was inside the boy's heart, manipulating it. Upon that, the boy sat down and said, " Today is really lame. Wasted my time. I feel lame."

-Mission accomplished-