~Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world
Tonight~
It's has been very confusing lately. Friends come and go, time hasten without limit. Sigh.. Yet the responsibilities on me didn't seem to lessen. Studies, duties... For the first time I find it hard to describe something. Do you know the feeling when you are stuck between something especially when that thing is inexplicable?
I am having this sort of feeling right now.
Once I did think that going to school is an utter waste of valuable time but as things around me started to circulate, I realised that I am totally in a different situation. Now, school times passed quickly, maybe too fast. For some time, I was surrounded by noises and laughters but unknowingly, I am getting more and more lonely. And this time, it's what I desired. I just want to get out of the crowd and be with my own. That kind of feeling is really.... confusing... Sometimes it left me on a certain spot where I find myself in somewhere unknown to me.
Not long ago, I found myself lamenting over my situation where I am not welcomed amongst people around me. But, it's different currently. Too different. I mean, there are some opposite sexes who are interested in me and they wanted to know more about me. Well, if everything went smoothly, there would be no problems but.. but.. haiz.. just but... Well, guys interested in girls or the other way round is something very natural especially for teenagers like us. We tend to have unusual ties with the opposite sex but it would be foolish if we go beyond that boundary. Liking someone is a privilege and it shouldn't be turned into something disastrous. After all, our feeling towards that person doesn't give us any special rights to do things the way we wanted it to be. Basically we are still friends. So, I feel quite troubled when some girls tend to be nicer to me all of a sudden. What I think is that why you have to be like that? We are still and just friends... Don't know why this sort of thing would also bother me... sigh..
One more thing which even more troubling is the coming exam. Before this, I did have the form and mood to study but as it's getting near, I tend to lose everything. Can't and don't feel like studying now. So, sigh.. ...
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