Friday, July 31, 2009

postive peace? or negative one? ><

For the past few weeks, life have been quiet and normal. I guess I have reached my goal, to have a peaceful life without any unnecessary worries which would only be a hindrance rather than a help. Due to this peaceful life, there's nothing much to blog.. Feel quite sad about it though. My life now only consist of God, music, studies, ping pong and some minor part like Dota, animation, basketball... So, no more conflicts, no more question marks for me to crack my mind. Is it good?

Thursday, July 9, 2009

My Immortal

My Immortal lyrics
Songwriters: Lucas Teoh... ^^xD

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

When?

Today, school was just as usual, nothing special or interesting but the little difference is that now I am starting to know what the teacher is talking about infront.

It was Wednesday, so after our class we would have some time for those meetings and stuffs la... Boring one, honestly.

Well, if you did follow my blog, you would have read that I've been very quiet in class nowadays, and it had been about 3 weeks that I didn't leave my classroom for no particular reasons (ponteng).. So, everything infront of me in school just passed without me giving a damn. But, the only thing I care about is one of my friend.

Usually, before that three weeks, Wednesday after classes would be a time when the both of us get together and have some chat, that was the time I liked the most. However, after an incident, we didn't talk anymore, didn't even see each other. That sudden, dramatic change really put a shock into me. Try to imagine someone who talks to you almost eveyday, be it in school or online, suddenly don't care about your existence, what you think? How feel you? Sad? Dissapointed? You name it! All those adjectives that are suitable t describe such situation, throw it out and you will find them in me.

So, today, I was with my friends, reading my story book and as if nothing is infront of me. When I was entering my class, which was supposed to have some sort of activities, I saw her. I saw her four floors below me, the one whom I could talk to, the one who told me a lot about herself.... And yet, now, all I can do is stand there and look at her, alone. She is that kind of quiet type, so, if you don't approach her, she won't care to approach you. hahaha.. xD... Therefore, she was all by herself, alone in solitude. I was sad, sad to see that now she is alone and no one was there to accompany her, or, you can say that no one cares about her. No one knows the beauty inside her, the friendly smile inside her, that kind of innocent thoughts and maybe fallcies inside her... No one knows, no one wants to know.. What can I do? I can't just walk straight into my class and take it as if nothing happened... She was alone.. haiz... When can we talk to each other again.. When.. When....