It is time

To be in a relationship, no matter what it is, you must be first be ready to sacrifice.
I have come to realize the validity of this statement.
Once, I used to think that it's possible to maintain something at the same time, gaining something new. But then, in the process of maintaining as well as adapting to the new environment, I found it very difficult to do both simultaneously. There might be some who can but I have to admit, I am not that one.
Never have I left home for such a long period before. I did not understand the function and the effect of distance to our daily life and also our mind. In other words, I underestimated the power of distance. Then, i was sad to acknowledge the fact that some of my friends failed to see partially or fully understand the the definition of distance. They still take it lightly and did not bring forth any kinds of action to get a step closer to the meaning and impact of distance. By knowing so, all I can do at the present is to embrace something new. Note that something new here consists of the negative and positive ones.
Leaving my comfort zone into another place for education sake, I met new friends. By doing so, changes came into life. Such changes only took a few months to revel it's effect on my life. I appreciated friends a lot. The ones I met were sincere, fun, true, adventurous, mature and good. All I could say is that it's my privilege to meet people like them. This would be the positive side of my recent changes. Yet, it was always true to say that we gain and lose at the same time. Friends, close friends were at the expanse. I did try to maintain how it used to be but obviously, I failed. Initially, I put the blame on me. However, as time passed, I came to realise that the fault wasn't at all mine. As we all clearly knew that magnificent things such as relationship worked in two directions. By saying so, I would dare say that I fail cause I was the only one who was on the move.
It was tiring and demotivating. As this problem carried on to a certain extend, I gave up. Nevertheless, I was filled with remorse. But then, I knew clearly that all these were part and parcels of life, of growing up. I just have to be ready...
In the entire growing process, different people will be stationed into your life. Get to know them, get along with them. As for the old ones, just let it be.
So, for all my 6 friends who are doing Ausmat with me currently, I do not know what to expect in the future. I no longer have the confidence and the strength to say that our friendship will last. I dare not. No. So what to expect? I do not know.. I do not know...
Noel, Aows, Mei Xin, Jophy, Lining, Weiyi... I do not know what to say for the times to come. But I dare say this: you guys have been good and true friends to me. Thank you.

Technology and Teenagers

Don't get confused. I am not promoting any phones or admiring them.
It was true that a few months back, I longed for a new phone. You can say it was to satisfy my materialistic desire or upgrading myself. Whatever it was, I did want to have a phone.
Now, I can still remember it vividly in my mind that during the time of purchasing a new phone, the great and utmost difficulty was the price. Each of them costed way above 1K. At that time, I wanted to use my own money. Even so, I could feel the aching feeling in my heart using my own money.
But after everything was over, I decided not to get one as my degree education would be very costly and I had to save some money.
After stepping out of the idea of having a new phone and the satisfaction once I really possess one, I came to realise that actually a phone is a phone. You get what I mean? A phone was a phone.
As we all know, the main objective of getting a mobile phone is to be in connection with other people. Apart from that, I personally do not think that a phone has anything to do with it. From the pictures above, i-phones, galaxy this and that, what are they actually for??? Messaging? Phone calling? Yeah.. That's a phone. Online? Game? "App"? Are these the real need of a phone? I mean, if you really love to online, get a laptop. If you really are a game fanatic, get a gameBOY or PSP. If you are crazy for apps.. then I do not know what you should get. Many would say that having a phone is different than having laptop. Well, all I can see is that having a phone that can go online randomly spoils our eyesight, kills many many of our cells and deteriorates the relationship between humans. People who have phones that can access the internet tend to go online both when they are alone and with people around them. I mean, can't you arrange your time so that you can go online properly and hang out with friends properly? Yeah, maybe for those working or businessmen, they should have one as it affects their career directly but for teenagers, nah~ i don't think so there is such a need.
What's worst, it's becoming a trend that everyone teenagers to own a flat piece of black mirror which you can make it work with your fingers. Sounds magical though. xD. Some would sacrifice many many things just to gain one regardless of the price. From this phenomena, I kept asking myself, why??? Why?? Why??
A phone like samsung galaxy or i-phone are very very very very costly. Yet, just to be in the mainstream, teenagers daringly emptied their pocket to replace the cash with a new device. And, they keep changing it. A new one comes, the old one goes. And let me emphasise it here, the old one REALLY goes. To where, God knows.
It is rather sad to know that teenagers, young people today are so manipulated by all sorts of trends. You name it and there is it. Trend, which consists of so much varieties of things, demands it's followers and admirers to spend just to be part of it. Unfortunately, those followers are willing to spend.
In times to come, it's hard to say what would it be for us. You might see a guy who looks very sophisticated with all sorts of gadgets and devices around this entire body. But then, he can't read or write. Is that it?
I certainly hope not.