Moderation

It's been quite a while.
It's been quite a while since I sat in front of my laptop and started typing a new post.
Unknowingly, every time I start to write a new post again, the scientific part of my behavior will just disappear and replaced by the emotional part of me. This time, many things have changed. Gone were the days when a young lad kept longing to return home. Looking from where I am standing right now, I have to yet again repeat the conventional saying but this time in a rather exaggerated manner: time travels faster than light.
For the past few months, I have been handling with numbers, figures, graphs, formulas more than a phrase or a sentence. Engineering. Without me noticing, I am actually in my second year of my Chemical Engineering. I have also been in this far-away-place called Miri for more than a year. After being here for thus long, it actually doesn't seem so far away from home. To put it in the right picture, no where is actually far away from home. To think that one who gets familiarized with a certain unfamiliar place will definitely have a better time is definitely wrong. My first year here in Miri was, by far, the most relaxing. Second year is a year filled with challenges and responsibilities. I definitely prefer the harder second year because over relaxing is actually equivalent to wasting time. With all the chores at hand, it leaves me no space to accommodate time. It is gradually yet quickly slipping out of my grasps. Well, second year will be over soon and hopefully, if everything goes well, I will be at Perth the next year. This is what I am looking forward to. Thanks to my supportive mum, I have a bright future of going overseas to experience something new there not as a employee but even a better, as a student. I pray that nothing will go wrong along the way. Though the time to come still remain unknown and unseen, I can deduce that four years of degree in university isn't that long.
How is everyone back there?
Such a question frequently shows itself in my mind whenever I am taking a daze or having an empty mind.
True. How is everyone back there, from the young to the old? It is rather inhuman to say that I don't miss them at all. It is untrue too. But there is a Chinese saying that describes a man's ambition to be everywhere across the globe. It is indeed difficult to leave everything behind you, cutting off all emotional ties and just look and strive forward. Yet, it has to be done. I have to train myself to let go. Comparing with how I was when I was doing my foundation, I would say that I actually had tremendous progress.
Now, I realized lately that young kids of age 13 to 15 love to put up pictures of their own on social websites such as Facebook or Instagram. Such a picture is usually attached with a quote saying that that picture is taken out of his or her free will and if anyone doesn't like it can just go away.
If we take a look at how young kids transform in terms of their confidence across a few decades, it is crystal clear that nowadays kids are actually very much confident than the kids back then. Many factors contribute to such trend such as better family background or education. Nevertheless, in terms of substance and knowledge, i would say that kids today are much ignorant to the things happening around them or to them compared with the kids back then. They are capable of making stupid statements yet refuse to receive any corrections or suggestions. They possess the potential to do self-injuring things yet are sensitive to any "no". So if I were to put it correctly, kids today are actually of less substance and knowledge but higher confidence. After doing something wrong or inappropriate, upon reprimanding them, they would say this is my freedom and if you don't fancy it, you can step aside. It is rather sad to realize that such trend is getting more and more common among Chinese educated kids. I would say, in hard and harsh manner, that stupid or less intelligent people should not have the right to be confident. Put aside love and encouragement but if people who are unfit to have confidence gain some, in return, it will only boost his or her arrogance and further enhance his ignorance. The concept of moderation comes into picture. Nothing on Earth can be applied, given, received, showered upon or solicited to everyone and everything. Some people say that everyone should have confident. But I personally have to disagree. Some people just are unfit to have confidence just as some are not worthy to be offered help as they themselves do not help their own.
It might be harsh and very intolerable to some people but then, sometimes it is good to be a little harsh rather than go soft all the way. Look at the young girls and boys around us today. Don't you think they need more hard discipline rather than continuous, pointless and fruitless love?

Just a piece of my mind.

Piano Mashup

I just love improvising with a few songs.
Enjoy!

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2012 is over. 

My birthday is over. 

So, what's next? 

I certainly hope someone can reveal the answer to me. 

2013 came quietly into my life this time. And so was 7/1/2013. Both of them just came and left. Did they leave something behind? Maybe yes. Maybe no. I just wasn't sure. 

One of my friend asked me, "Lucas, I am sure you have a list of to-do list for 2013, right?"

Well, the truth is, I don't have any. Was it because I didn't have the motivation to actually sit down and ponder over it? Was it because I genuinely lacked the idea for it? I just wasn't sure. 

Lately I keep asking myself. What do I really need? What do I really want? What can I really achieve? Questions questions questions. All over my head. With the right timing, these little question marks can serve as a fruit of thought. However, if they visited me at those unpleasant times, then I would be in an abyss of emotions. 

Two more months before I fly over South China Sea once again, so far far away from my comfort zone. 

I have to do something. I have to do something fast. ASAP. 

These two months shall not be put to waste. 

No, they shall not...