Right now, I am entering the fourth week of my second semester.
Throughout these 4 weeks, I dare say that I have been relatively comfortable and happy. Some of such satisfaction come from the fact that I finally move in into a new house which feels more like home. It really does make a difference. Living in a place where it signifies nothing but keep reminding you that you are far far away from home does make one sick. For now, I just love this room of mine where I have my privacy but then not so lonely and away from the friends here.
Academic wise, I feel more right on track this semester. Last semester was a total confusion. But then, I still lack the diligence that I expected from myself before coming here. I keep telling people around me that the worst weakness is when you identified your own weakness, acknowledging them but did nothing to alter the course of it. It is just pathetic and weak. Sadly and unfortunately, I am finding difficulty to apply this personal thought to my current situation. Sad.
Another thing that really makes me happy is the activities here. I am in Curtin's volleyball club. There are many things that require my attention and effort. I like it as i treat it as a training ground for me. Apart all these management things, training hard to be a better volleyball player has accompanied me throughout these weeks. It is always fun and entertaining to set one of your targets on sports. I just enjoy looking at the result of my training gradually but effectively growing day by day. By doing so, it does provide some respect among the players in Curtin. I won't have the guts to say that I have the talent in it but then it's quite obvious that my improvement has been quite at a fast rate. No matter what happens, I will keep training on. Sigh.. But then, thinking about my two favourite sports back in Nibong Tebal, basketball and ping pong, I really miss playing them. It's a shame that I can't find any link to reconnect myself to basketball in Curtin. Somehow, it is as if it's not meant for me here. As for ping pong, this sport is quite underrated here. No one cares to play it or establish it. So, the two of my buddies are slowly fading away. I guess that's fate. I don't like it but that's how it is.
Once again I would like to thank the all mighty God for putting wonderful people in my life right now. First I have this very kind and elegant lecturer who never stop helping her students. It is really a gift from God to have met her. Second would be the friends here. Right now, it's like we have a small group of people consisting of 3 boys and a girl. The four of us just got together without anyone knowing it. It's just amazing how things work out their own way and form an equation which will last for a considerable amount of time. Though some of us within the group might not agree on most occasions, we do agree to disagree which makes things easier to settle.
Last night and this morning, my lecturer had a brief conversation with me. I started it first by asking, why some people are so popular or welcomed though they are nothing but jackasses. My lecturer threw me back a question, are you intimated by it? Then, she told me that I shouldn't look at what I didn't have but appreciate the people who stayed by with me for who I am. I appreciate those words and I shall remember them. But right now, sitting in front of my laptop, I question myself again. Why am I so insecure and intimated by the differences around me? I am definitely very very different from the people around me here, be it the academic arena or the sports arena. If you were to take out the few number of people around me, it would look as if I have been operating on my own throughout this while. But then, right until now, the results of such act has been promising. So, what's the problem? I guess I would have to think it through.
As for now, everything looks cool. :)
