A whole new world

Well, for your information, I just flew to another part of Malaysia and I am staying here.

LOL

I guess the idea of being a university student hasn't sunk into my mind yet. Still, I see myself as the boy from Nibong Tebal. Maybe it's good, maybe it's bad. I am still unsure of it. But I certainly won't want myself to forget my origin because that's who I am and that's what made me into the Lucas today.

When I first got here on the 18th of Febuary, I felt very empty. Vanity. At that time, I din't know what to expect or what to worry about. Despite the emptiness, I knew something was out there, waiting for me to grab it and turn it into mine.

I unpacked my things, did some cleaning and lied down to rest. It was nice that I got to know some rest who were staying at the same area as mine. Having friends on the first day was very useful in terms of companion. Though we came from very different background and places, I still tried my very best to fit in and I succeeded. But not long then only I realized that I was the only one who was different. All of them came from Johor Bahru, my mum's hometown, from the same education background. So, there were many terms that they used were very much unknown to me. That caused many barriers between us. But I was glad that I was able to handle my loneliness wisely. However different we might be, we still went out for lunch and dinner together. So, I could say that it's okay.
And so, the first day of the orientation was fine. Curtin campus was nice. It wasn't so big but wasn't small also. More towards greenery and nature, that's what I liked about it. Besides, there were many new building coming up. As a whole, I liked the university and what was in stored for me.
Now, about the people there. This was the first funny part that I got to know about myself. As I had mentioned above, I din't get fit it so well with the first group. Now, I met another kind of people. Now, this kind of people, they looked good, confident, a little bit arrogant and high-ended. At first sight, I din't quite like them due to their arrogant behavior. But then, I started to talk to them. I went for lunch with them and I found out that they were actually very nice people. And, to my surprise, I kinda like hanging around with them. Really funny and surprising. Cause for thus long, I thought I myself won't like to mix around with people like them but it turned out totally different from what I expected. Nice. At least I got to know something new about myself.

I guess I will stop here.

Stay tuned :)

Let's Do it!!!!

And so I've been very free for quite some time. Ever since I had settled down with the idea of which university to get in to, the whole burden that I had in my head was lifted up. But still, deep down inside I still knew that I was about to leave.
In the process of making tough decisions, I learnt a lot and changed a lot. There was a Chinese saying that sounded like this, "the new stuffs won't appear if the old ones weren't gone."

Such theories were easier to say than done. That's true for sure. Many adults or "early-matured" teenagers loved to use them when they were comforting or educating the younger ones. Nevertheless, now that I know it, I am sure that it would be better for one to personally undergo that kind of feeling to fully understand it. Sometimes life is just that way. If everyone can achieve greatness just by theoretical education, without practical use, then many people would be at home and home only.

For now, I am at the beginning of a race. A race of my life. To where, unknown. I ain't even sure whether I am doing the right thing. But I am sure that I will do my best. So many things await my presence and my effort. Some of them would be my achievement and some would be my lessons of life. I am not quite certain whether I am ready to do this. I don't know whether I will adapt to the new surroundings as quickly as possible. I don't know whether I will still be the old Lucas once I have finished everything. But then again, when will it be finished? When will this race be over? Who is the referee or judge that calls the end?

As I started to pack my things and waved a hand saying good bye to the people here, I come to realise that it's time to go. Those people around me, those so dear to me, they need their own arenas to expand also. At the end of the day, we all would be someone in our own unique way. I asked my friends before, "Do you wish to be someone of great power or success that your name would be known worldwide ?" They din't answer it. But I knew that we all would be someone in our own way. We would be so different in so many ways. Then, it would be our duties and responsibilities to salvage a mutual point amid the vast difference in order to continue on what we had started. If not, all would be lost unknowingly and indirectly. But no matter what it is or will be, life still goes on. As I had said to my friend, we will all die and decay eventually. So let's see how we utilise our remaining time. It does sound a little despair but that's the truth I guess.

My time here is dying out and out there at Miri, it's growing up. I have to be ready. I just have to! Inspired by Jeremy Lin, a NBA player from Taiwan, I hope to rely and count on another source of strength.

Let's Do it!!!!

Dragon Year

春风吹到你的家

健康快乐带来啦

小朋友呀都听话

学业成绩顶呱呱

情侣今年结婚啦

快快生个胖娃娃

这个世界有多大

最重要过的开心啦

给你一个红包说好话开心笑哈哈

换上新衣戴新帽新鞋和新袜

时间滴答答带着梦想慢慢发芽

举起手唱啦啦啦啦

没烦忧来开心过年

生活里有苦辣酸甜

人总要学会快乐一点

举起手唱啦啦啦啦

向前走来开心过年

祝福你天天是好天

走过了从前才懂得珍惜每一天

This year, I will be in charged of creating a dance out of this song.
Kinda hard as this is the first time and for those who know me, they should know that i don't dance. hahaha... but I am glad I took on this task because I did tell myself before taking a step into 2012 that I wanna have a new personality. This is also to prepare myself to enter U.
So... GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!

Update

Yeap. It's been quite a while since I updated this blog of mine. Maybe it's because nothing really did inspire me to leave something here. Not even the coming of 2012. That, itself, shocked me.

For the past few weeks, I kept wondering the path ahead of me.

I had finished my foundation with a good result, good enough for me to enroll in several profound universities. Nevertheless, obtaining the result did not ease my thoughts. In fact, it worsened it. Since I had my result, I kept asking myself, where to?

This simple yet troubling question was tough for me to handle, despite all the helps given to me. Before facing this problem, I had another also. What to study?

After some deep thinking, I finally made up my mind. The funny thing about making up your mind was that, you kept questioning whether it was the best solution or decision. It happened to me. Fear I was to fathom the consequences of opting the wrong choice which, in the end, will cause me to suffer for 4 years. As things and issues around me were getting more and more real and close to the reality of life, I started to think more and at the same time, fear more. I wondered, so this called growing up eh?? It seemed like I really have much more to learn.

And so, time passed like a shooting arrow.

My birthday was perfect, thanks to my great friends. For this year, only a few people said happy birthday to me. Then only I knew, people just post "happy birthday" on your wall for nothing. Those who really remembered your birthday wouldn't require any reminders to wish you. Social networks really aggravated the whole thing. Sigh..

As I said, time is flying. My time here, at home, in my comfort zone, is on its countdown. I am filled with enthusiam and anticipation. I can't wait to discover what is in stored for me. However, my jubilance is short-lived. Having wanted to get out of my comfort zone is also equivalent to leaving my parents and friends. Often am I struck with ambivalence. Starting a whole new life seems like a great idea but to do that at the expanse of my relationship with my friends and family, that's heartbreaking.

For those who have left home for quite a period and are used to such mixed feelings, I could really use some help here.

My mum used to say to me that in order to achieve something great or better, it is necessary to sacrifice something as life is not always so perfect and fair.

Right now, I have many hopes in me. Hoping for this to happen and hoping for that to stay. Yet, in my little mind, I know pretty well that both are hard to come together. At the end, somehow, I have to make my decision and live by it.

For those who remembered my birthday, you have my utmost gratitude. It shows that you are a true friend and I shall treat you as such.

Good day.