Half of 2011 has passed.
Quick enough.
Meaningful enough??? Uncertain....
I am currently at a cross-road. At first, my heart was quite settled for Tasmania, Ocean Engineering in Australian Maritime College. But then, my mum heard from many people about the job prospect of this course. After some consideration, my mum requested that I put some thoughts whether or not to have a change in mind. Well, to be honest, I wasn't quite so happy when I heard that. But then, I knew my mum's concern and worries and so I started to reconsider. If I am not mistaken, I took approximately one week to achieve something.
I agreed to change my course into Chemical Engineering.
Now, this might sound weird for those who know me more.
For your information, my Chemistry SUX to the core. Nevertheless, I still got an A for my SPM. HAHA xD. And now I have agreed to take Chemical Engineering as my degree course and also, my future career. Funny? Without a second though, yes, funny indeed.
But then, I told my mum, with much determination, that I have decided and I was ready to take up this course.
My mum was quite happy to hear that. Knowing that she was happy, I was happy too. ^^
Then there was another problem.
Where to???
I have two options, either Monash University or Curtin University.
Guys, any opinions???
Monday, June 13, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Not Pro Enough
If you do follow my blog often, you might realize that I have changed my title (Not Pro Enough)..
It might sound funny for some people who are older than me. Nevertheless, I feel that I am inadequate. I lack something, or maybe many things. This flaw in me has stopped me from becoming someone greater than what I am now, I might say someone that I am supposed to be.
Pretty messed up in my mind now...
Yet I just have this feeling and urge to continue on this post..
Cause there's no one for me to confide in...
I know, I crave, I want to be a successful person in whatever I do, though knowing pretty well that it's rather impossible for someone to be perfect in all ways.
When I was young, I often had a kind of feeling where some part of me wished to just jump out. Just jump out. You get the meaning? Whatever that I was doing then, some part of me just felt like jumping out and do better.
At the first stage, I literally ignored it. But now, as I am getting bigger, more exposure here in Penang, I seriously feel it in me. It's like a sound or some invisible force pushing every part of my body to go forward, to achieve something, to be someone great.
And, whenever I failed to do so, I blamed myself a lot.
That's why I feel that I am not good enough, yet. In whatever I do, I am not good enough. I am supposed to be better.. better...
I will be better..
It might sound funny for some people who are older than me. Nevertheless, I feel that I am inadequate. I lack something, or maybe many things. This flaw in me has stopped me from becoming someone greater than what I am now, I might say someone that I am supposed to be.
Pretty messed up in my mind now...
Yet I just have this feeling and urge to continue on this post..
Cause there's no one for me to confide in...
I know, I crave, I want to be a successful person in whatever I do, though knowing pretty well that it's rather impossible for someone to be perfect in all ways.
When I was young, I often had a kind of feeling where some part of me wished to just jump out. Just jump out. You get the meaning? Whatever that I was doing then, some part of me just felt like jumping out and do better.
At the first stage, I literally ignored it. But now, as I am getting bigger, more exposure here in Penang, I seriously feel it in me. It's like a sound or some invisible force pushing every part of my body to go forward, to achieve something, to be someone great.
And, whenever I failed to do so, I blamed myself a lot.
That's why I feel that I am not good enough, yet. In whatever I do, I am not good enough. I am supposed to be better.. better...
I will be better..
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Collide
～一首不被珍惜的曲子，弹来有何用～
时间还过得真快，明天我好多朋友要上中六了。真的替他们感到开心特别是她，在家里没事做，早点上学会比较适合她。
很多人去中六，镇凯，Elin,思恩，秀芬。全部一起去，他们都有伴，说句难听的，就像重复中一到中五的生活可是现在的设定就不一样了。之前，全部还小小，你不认识我，我不认识你。全部还幼稚，还不懂很多东西。可是在同一间学校五年了以后，对彼此的认识当然是更深一层。在这样的设定下，而且别忘记，彼此都是一起考SPM，一起在中五毕业的，又要重新在同一间学校继续读两年，真的有着很不同的环境和感觉。这样的“新”感觉，对一些人来说可能是好事，他们可能认为，很好啊，不用浪费时间再去认识新朋友。在那同时，也会有另一组的人觉得很显，又要穿校服，又要服从那支藤条，真是辛苦啊。
哈哈...
每个人有不同的看法，可惜，我无法体会到在那个情况里能有什么样的滋味因为我已经一个人在KDU读书了。一个人到那边读呢，好是在你可以有个新的开始，不必被以前的朋友纠缠。可是，你会很寂寞。真的会。
不相信的话你自己去试看 ^^
现在我身边的好朋友-镇凯，去Tunku读书了咯～
早上不能信息他了，除非他逃课啦～
唉～
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I don't know why I have such a strange feeling when I get to know the reality that my friends are going to school tomorrow.
It's like, I am losing them or something cause I am so far away in KDU. This distance between us doesn't only apply to physical distance but also what each of us experience and undergo. It's totally different now. They might have topic to discuss with other friends from Tunku. This is only understandable as they are in the same situation.
So....
This is how I feel.
～顿时间的寂寞，又有谁明白咧～
时间还过得真快，明天我好多朋友要上中六了。真的替他们感到开心特别是她，在家里没事做，早点上学会比较适合她。
很多人去中六，镇凯，Elin,思恩，秀芬。全部一起去，他们都有伴，说句难听的，就像重复中一到中五的生活可是现在的设定就不一样了。之前，全部还小小，你不认识我，我不认识你。全部还幼稚，还不懂很多东西。可是在同一间学校五年了以后，对彼此的认识当然是更深一层。在这样的设定下，而且别忘记，彼此都是一起考SPM，一起在中五毕业的，又要重新在同一间学校继续读两年，真的有着很不同的环境和感觉。这样的“新”感觉，对一些人来说可能是好事，他们可能认为，很好啊，不用浪费时间再去认识新朋友。在那同时，也会有另一组的人觉得很显，又要穿校服，又要服从那支藤条，真是辛苦啊。
哈哈...
每个人有不同的看法，可惜，我无法体会到在那个情况里能有什么样的滋味因为我已经一个人在KDU读书了。一个人到那边读呢，好是在你可以有个新的开始，不必被以前的朋友纠缠。可是，你会很寂寞。真的会。
不相信的话你自己去试看 ^^
现在我身边的好朋友-镇凯，去Tunku读书了咯～
早上不能信息他了，除非他逃课啦～
唉～
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I don't know why I have such a strange feeling when I get to know the reality that my friends are going to school tomorrow.
It's like, I am losing them or something cause I am so far away in KDU. This distance between us doesn't only apply to physical distance but also what each of us experience and undergo. It's totally different now. They might have topic to discuss with other friends from Tunku. This is only understandable as they are in the same situation.
So....
This is how I feel.
～顿时间的寂寞，又有谁明白咧～
Monday, April 18, 2011
Message to all...
hey guys...
once again, the motion of time did not fail to impress everyone...
i am already in KDU college for 3 months...another 6 more months and i am going away...
everything's been smooth and fine..
for now, what's really on my mind is to get good results, as good as possible in order to get scholarship in Tasmania next year..
sometimes i do wonder, am i actually suppose to do this expensive course in Tasmania? will i succeed? all sort of doubts...
cause my confidence do mislead me sometimes and i don't want this to happen when i am to make such huge decision....
i guess all that i can do now is to leave it all to God's guidance...
At the mean time, i have a word for my dear friends who are going to form 6 which will only start their lesson in the month of September( damn long >.<), appreciate the time that you have now no matter where you are. Do meaningful things and do not waste your precious time for useless affairs... before you start your studies, make sure you have made use of your free time fully...
So, everyone, all the best and God bless for the coming days, weeks, years..
Goodnight..
once again, the motion of time did not fail to impress everyone...
i am already in KDU college for 3 months...another 6 more months and i am going away...
everything's been smooth and fine..
for now, what's really on my mind is to get good results, as good as possible in order to get scholarship in Tasmania next year..
sometimes i do wonder, am i actually suppose to do this expensive course in Tasmania? will i succeed? all sort of doubts...
cause my confidence do mislead me sometimes and i don't want this to happen when i am to make such huge decision....
i guess all that i can do now is to leave it all to God's guidance...
At the mean time, i have a word for my dear friends who are going to form 6 which will only start their lesson in the month of September( damn long >.<), appreciate the time that you have now no matter where you are. Do meaningful things and do not waste your precious time for useless affairs... before you start your studies, make sure you have made use of your free time fully...
So, everyone, all the best and God bless for the coming days, weeks, years..
Goodnight..
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