One day, a friend of mine asked me a simple question: “ Lucas, how’s life?”
The purpose of asking this question is to start a conversation in a friendly way.. However, “how’s life”, these two words really caused me to meditate.. So serious.. .
How’s life?... How’s life?...
In this situation, life here means to me the life in school. This is the main reason why I am cracking my head to figure this simple question. Life in school is like a living hell for me.. I don’t feel nice in my class… At the early stage, I was happy because everyone will talk to me whenever I talk to them.. Great!!! But sometimes, you have to think the other way… They will talk to you when you talk to them, what if, you don’t talk to them? Will they talk to you? Well, this is the question as well as problem I am facing without me knowing it ( until tonight only I realize )…
I remembered telling my brother how great were the weeks of my life in school. It was really great, as I was the only one doing all the talking… =.=…After a one-week school holiday, I return back to school. And this time, wow…Suddenly, I find out that actually no one talks to me… great… how funny to say that.. be more optimistic, Lucas!!! I heard myself telling me.. yet, the problem still exists..
It so happen that my mood is on the passive side, hoping for an active one to come near me and have a lovely conversation together. But this “active” one didn’t appear for the whole day… Yet, I have all my time spent with my nice Chinese novel…. That’s the day for me.. Reading, thinking, imagining and laughing al to myself with no one to share with. All in a sudden I feel so lonely and quiet… I take a look at the class, well, they are still there.. They still exist in this class.. But, they aren’t caring much about my existence more I care about theirs…
Well, whatever.. I continued with my reading and that became the alpha and omega of my day in school- READING….
So, how’s life?? Can I get a satisfying answer? Can I find a satisfying answer? Or worst, will this continue on? Will I be able to find a solution for this matter?
Somehow, deep inside me, I don’t give a damn about these sorts of things but I don’t know why this particular day gives me so many thinking homework.. Is there a problem lurking nearby? I hope there isn’t….
So, how’s life???
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
U.P... ( Ujian Pretasi )
U.P.. This is a kind of test in my school ( in other schools i believe there are examinations like this also )...
U.P.. This is a kind of sign that teachers can't teach and educate students well...
Ujian Prestasi.. wow.. sounds so good.. so challenging... so effective.. And yet, it doesn't has any value in it... Maybe you don't understand such saying, well, let me give you an example.. This particular examination covers all subjects like Add Math, B.M, B.I, Bio, Physics, Chem and all sorts. As everyone knows, except for the teachers I think, form 4 syllabus is quite tough and it's the basic of form 5, without it, you would fail in you SPM. How important it is and yet, in our U.P, for example Add Math, we are tested only on 13 questions... 13 questions = 90 marks... marvelous!!
And what about the other 10 marks? It's from our exercise books. In other words, if you pass up, you will get 10 marks, for FREE ; and if you didn't pass up, well, the maximum marks for you would be just 90....
According to the professor of lameology, such situation can be best described as LAME.... =.=...
I am here writting this blog and tommorrow is my U.P examination. Seriously, I think it is a waste of effort, from teachers and students, money, from the school authorities and time, from teachers as well as students..
In the real SPM, you would be tested on many questions.. thus, that's a piece of quality paper.. as for this shit U.P, 13 questions and you r valued by that number of questions.. maybe some students can do very well but they din hand in their exercise books, maybe they forgot about it, plus, they did a little careless mistakes during the exam and they end up getting 70+ or 70-.. How sad... How are they going to explain to their parents.. Unfortunately, nowadays parents believe so much in the school that they think their child didn't do any revisions... Sigh... poor thing..
I think seriously that the school authorities, especially teachers who think that they are very experience, are responsible for such phenomena.. If they really care for their students, they should as well work hard instead of chit chatting and keep their tummies fat and round to have a better exam for the students. Better exams can be defined as exams which have quality ( many questions , SPM fomat ) and the marks are from the papers and not from the exercise books..
How I hope teachers would listen to some suggestions.. I am sick of preparing for this U.P.. lame.. What's worst, this lame U.P is after a one-week-holiday!!!! OH MY!! It really drives me up the wall and slams me on the wall.. Lame...
Professor of lameology is exactly right.. LAME..
U.P.. This is a kind of sign that teachers can't teach and educate students well...
Ujian Prestasi.. wow.. sounds so good.. so challenging... so effective.. And yet, it doesn't has any value in it... Maybe you don't understand such saying, well, let me give you an example.. This particular examination covers all subjects like Add Math, B.M, B.I, Bio, Physics, Chem and all sorts. As everyone knows, except for the teachers I think, form 4 syllabus is quite tough and it's the basic of form 5, without it, you would fail in you SPM. How important it is and yet, in our U.P, for example Add Math, we are tested only on 13 questions... 13 questions = 90 marks... marvelous!!
And what about the other 10 marks? It's from our exercise books. In other words, if you pass up, you will get 10 marks, for FREE ; and if you didn't pass up, well, the maximum marks for you would be just 90....
According to the professor of lameology, such situation can be best described as LAME.... =.=...
I am here writting this blog and tommorrow is my U.P examination. Seriously, I think it is a waste of effort, from teachers and students, money, from the school authorities and time, from teachers as well as students..
In the real SPM, you would be tested on many questions.. thus, that's a piece of quality paper.. as for this shit U.P, 13 questions and you r valued by that number of questions.. maybe some students can do very well but they din hand in their exercise books, maybe they forgot about it, plus, they did a little careless mistakes during the exam and they end up getting 70+ or 70-.. How sad... How are they going to explain to their parents.. Unfortunately, nowadays parents believe so much in the school that they think their child didn't do any revisions... Sigh... poor thing..
I think seriously that the school authorities, especially teachers who think that they are very experience, are responsible for such phenomena.. If they really care for their students, they should as well work hard instead of chit chatting and keep their tummies fat and round to have a better exam for the students. Better exams can be defined as exams which have quality ( many questions , SPM fomat ) and the marks are from the papers and not from the exercise books..
How I hope teachers would listen to some suggestions.. I am sick of preparing for this U.P.. lame.. What's worst, this lame U.P is after a one-week-holiday!!!! OH MY!! It really drives me up the wall and slams me on the wall.. Lame...
Professor of lameology is exactly right.. LAME..
Friday, March 13, 2009
Vapour.....
I was sad... I was depressed deep down inside... What's wrong ? Anything happened between the two of us?? Well, I think i better give her some time to figure it out.. maybe she would fix things out by herself, afterall, she is a smart girl... That's what I thought for 3 weeks.. Somehow, no results were shown to me... So, I continue such feeling in me...
Finally!!! The day arrived!! Wow!! I had plenty of free time to do some chit chatting... The person who showed up in my mind was she... She... Funny... How come I was still thinking about her? Really funny... Anyway, I din't care how funny it was and I straight went to find her with difficulties...
I found her, asked her if she was willing to have a little talk... And, everything was kinda like fast forwarded until I was sitting in the class with her and we were starting to talk... At first I started in a bad mood ( as I have kept such feeling in me for 3 weeks and I can't wait to let it out ). Of course, I regreted that almost immediately.
After a long discussion, I found out that it turned out to be me who was the wrong guy.. Wow... Amazing.. Awesome... It was me.. haha.. What can I say.. However, what I know is that my care and love were not appreciated... They were taken as a burden, as a pressure that I caused to her.. I don't know... It seemed like I screwed up everything..
After typing this blog, I realised that this friendship between the both of us.. I think, I ain't sure, has turned into vapour which will not condense into water and reappear into my life.. Even though it will, I find it hard to accept someone who don't appreciate my care...
So that's it... vapour... a vapour of history... a vapour of yesterday...
Finally!!! The day arrived!! Wow!! I had plenty of free time to do some chit chatting... The person who showed up in my mind was she... She... Funny... How come I was still thinking about her? Really funny... Anyway, I din't care how funny it was and I straight went to find her with difficulties...
I found her, asked her if she was willing to have a little talk... And, everything was kinda like fast forwarded until I was sitting in the class with her and we were starting to talk... At first I started in a bad mood ( as I have kept such feeling in me for 3 weeks and I can't wait to let it out ). Of course, I regreted that almost immediately.
After a long discussion, I found out that it turned out to be me who was the wrong guy.. Wow... Amazing.. Awesome... It was me.. haha.. What can I say.. However, what I know is that my care and love were not appreciated... They were taken as a burden, as a pressure that I caused to her.. I don't know... It seemed like I screwed up everything..
After typing this blog, I realised that this friendship between the both of us.. I think, I ain't sure, has turned into vapour which will not condense into water and reappear into my life.. Even though it will, I find it hard to accept someone who don't appreciate my care...
So that's it... vapour... a vapour of history... a vapour of yesterday...
Monday, February 16, 2009
Music...
When i was very young, music entered my life without me knowing it, thx to my mum.
Again, without me knowing it, it became part of my life which I can't afford to lose. It's been 9 years that music had played an essential role in my life. It became my partner, it became a solution to my bore and it sometimes gave me some answers to some tough questions. So it's quite obvious how important music is to me and I respect it.
Recently, I heard a news about my friend. Well. this friend of mine has a lot of history with me, however, all of them ended when I get to know something.
This friend is a she. All I can say about her is that she is fake. Fake in everything she does, too bad that I only realise it today, one of my biggest mistake. She is also a girl who will fight for everything just to achieve good results and this makes her quite discussting. ^^
So here it is...
As she is form 4 now, so am I, she is getting to worry about SPM.. typical bookworm..
She is planning what subjects to take in order to lead a better future. Now, there's a lame saying that we should at least get 13 subjects, in other words, 13A's. This will ensure everything in the future. And here they are, all the girls are worried. They started to wonder what addtional subjects they must take in order to reach that level. She, is not excluded.
She is in science class and all the subjects in her hand now is 11, 2 to go...
She wants to take Geografi, even though she doesn't really likes it... What's worst, she wants to take music... MUSIC.. For the sake of an A... MUSIC = A
I can't accept that, can you??
In my mind, music is a living thing that can be your friend or your teacher. It lives in you wherever you go. However, students nowadays take music as an additional subject just for the sake of an A. What a disgrace to music, what a humiliate to music... I just can't imagine how her mind thnks. It's quite sad to admit that our educational system has drived students to such a level. study because of "A"...
That's nothing more for me to say. What I can do is by hoping that she takes music because it's her interest....
Again, without me knowing it, it became part of my life which I can't afford to lose. It's been 9 years that music had played an essential role in my life. It became my partner, it became a solution to my bore and it sometimes gave me some answers to some tough questions. So it's quite obvious how important music is to me and I respect it.
Recently, I heard a news about my friend. Well. this friend of mine has a lot of history with me, however, all of them ended when I get to know something.
This friend is a she. All I can say about her is that she is fake. Fake in everything she does, too bad that I only realise it today, one of my biggest mistake. She is also a girl who will fight for everything just to achieve good results and this makes her quite discussting. ^^
So here it is...
As she is form 4 now, so am I, she is getting to worry about SPM.. typical bookworm..
She is planning what subjects to take in order to lead a better future. Now, there's a lame saying that we should at least get 13 subjects, in other words, 13A's. This will ensure everything in the future. And here they are, all the girls are worried. They started to wonder what addtional subjects they must take in order to reach that level. She, is not excluded.
She is in science class and all the subjects in her hand now is 11, 2 to go...
She wants to take Geografi, even though she doesn't really likes it... What's worst, she wants to take music... MUSIC.. For the sake of an A... MUSIC = A
I can't accept that, can you??
In my mind, music is a living thing that can be your friend or your teacher. It lives in you wherever you go. However, students nowadays take music as an additional subject just for the sake of an A. What a disgrace to music, what a humiliate to music... I just can't imagine how her mind thnks. It's quite sad to admit that our educational system has drived students to such a level. study because of "A"...
That's nothing more for me to say. What I can do is by hoping that she takes music because it's her interest....
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