Moderation

It's been quite a while.
It's been quite a while since I sat in front of my laptop and started typing a new post.
Unknowingly, every time I start to write a new post again, the scientific part of my behavior will just disappear and replaced by the emotional part of me. This time, many things have changed. Gone were the days when a young lad kept longing to return home. Looking from where I am standing right now, I have to yet again repeat the conventional saying but this time in a rather exaggerated manner: time travels faster than light.
For the past few months, I have been handling with numbers, figures, graphs, formulas more than a phrase or a sentence. Engineering. Without me noticing, I am actually in my second year of my Chemical Engineering. I have also been in this far-away-place called Miri for more than a year. After being here for thus long, it actually doesn't seem so far away from home. To put it in the right picture, no where is actually far away from home. To think that one who gets familiarized with a certain unfamiliar place will definitely have a better time is definitely wrong. My first year here in Miri was, by far, the most relaxing. Second year is a year filled with challenges and responsibilities. I definitely prefer the harder second year because over relaxing is actually equivalent to wasting time. With all the chores at hand, it leaves me no space to accommodate time. It is gradually yet quickly slipping out of my grasps. Well, second year will be over soon and hopefully, if everything goes well, I will be at Perth the next year. This is what I am looking forward to. Thanks to my supportive mum, I have a bright future of going overseas to experience something new there not as a employee but even a better, as a student. I pray that nothing will go wrong along the way. Though the time to come still remain unknown and unseen, I can deduce that four years of degree in university isn't that long.
How is everyone back there?
Such a question frequently shows itself in my mind whenever I am taking a daze or having an empty mind.
True. How is everyone back there, from the young to the old? It is rather inhuman to say that I don't miss them at all. It is untrue too. But there is a Chinese saying that describes a man's ambition to be everywhere across the globe. It is indeed difficult to leave everything behind you, cutting off all emotional ties and just look and strive forward. Yet, it has to be done. I have to train myself to let go. Comparing with how I was when I was doing my foundation, I would say that I actually had tremendous progress.
Now, I realized lately that young kids of age 13 to 15 love to put up pictures of their own on social websites such as Facebook or Instagram. Such a picture is usually attached with a quote saying that that picture is taken out of his or her free will and if anyone doesn't like it can just go away.
If we take a look at how young kids transform in terms of their confidence across a few decades, it is crystal clear that nowadays kids are actually very much confident than the kids back then. Many factors contribute to such trend such as better family background or education. Nevertheless, in terms of substance and knowledge, i would say that kids today are much ignorant to the things happening around them or to them compared with the kids back then. They are capable of making stupid statements yet refuse to receive any corrections or suggestions. They possess the potential to do self-injuring things yet are sensitive to any "no". So if I were to put it correctly, kids today are actually of less substance and knowledge but higher confidence. After doing something wrong or inappropriate, upon reprimanding them, they would say this is my freedom and if you don't fancy it, you can step aside. It is rather sad to realize that such trend is getting more and more common among Chinese educated kids. I would say, in hard and harsh manner, that stupid or less intelligent people should not have the right to be confident. Put aside love and encouragement but if people who are unfit to have confidence gain some, in return, it will only boost his or her arrogance and further enhance his ignorance. The concept of moderation comes into picture. Nothing on Earth can be applied, given, received, showered upon or solicited to everyone and everything. Some people say that everyone should have confident. But I personally have to disagree. Some people just are unfit to have confidence just as some are not worthy to be offered help as they themselves do not help their own.
It might be harsh and very intolerable to some people but then, sometimes it is good to be a little harsh rather than go soft all the way. Look at the young girls and boys around us today. Don't you think they need more hard discipline rather than continuous, pointless and fruitless love?

Just a piece of my mind.

Piano Mashup

I just love improvising with a few songs.
Enjoy!

????

2012 is over. 

My birthday is over. 

So, what's next? 

I certainly hope someone can reveal the answer to me. 

2013 came quietly into my life this time. And so was 7/1/2013. Both of them just came and left. Did they leave something behind? Maybe yes. Maybe no. I just wasn't sure. 

One of my friend asked me, "Lucas, I am sure you have a list of to-do list for 2013, right?"

Well, the truth is, I don't have any. Was it because I didn't have the motivation to actually sit down and ponder over it? Was it because I genuinely lacked the idea for it? I just wasn't sure. 

Lately I keep asking myself. What do I really need? What do I really want? What can I really achieve? Questions questions questions. All over my head. With the right timing, these little question marks can serve as a fruit of thought. However, if they visited me at those unpleasant times, then I would be in an abyss of emotions. 

Two more months before I fly over South China Sea once again, so far far away from my comfort zone. 

I have to do something. I have to do something fast. ASAP. 

These two months shall not be put to waste. 

No, they shall not... 

给你们的一些话～

Merry Christmas everyone..
So many hours spent in the church.
So many hours spent with the same group of people.
Time is really something magnificent.
Some says that it is the best remedy of life. Some says that it can only disrupt.
But I say that it can create.
A group of young people around the age of 12 to 15 has been main social scenery recently. We had been spending quality time together preparing for the coming Christmas.
We danced, we acted, we sang.
Sounds great huh???
NO! It was very exhausting. VERY!
I was caught exhausted and out of temper at times. I regretted them.
Yet, the passing of time had built up our bonding. Together, we fell and stood up again. Together, we were sad and happy. Together, we smiled and threw tantrum. For the past two weeks, we did so many things together.
All that we prepared, was for 23rd and 24th night.
In other words, Christmas brought us together. God brought us together.
I sincerely thank God for that.
As everything is moving pass our current position, I start to feel and know that I will miss this bunch of teenagers.
I love them as who they are and who they were. Nevertheless, will I be able to see what they will be?
There're something that I want to say to them.

To Michelle >>> 遵守神的教导是你的优点。继续保持。适当的时候，学习放开自己，不要被自己捆绑；适当的时候，学习约束自己，不要让自己成了自己的绊脚石。对的时候做，想，说，对的事情，便是成熟。

To 美瑜>>> 负责任的价值观一向来都被你重视。你是一个有主见，有意见的人。学习发表。你被很多个人因素捆绑着。学习释放自己，你就会如鹰展翅

To 梓豪 >>> 脚踏实地是你所缺。在新的一年的来临，自己应该花点时间想想自己要的是什么，想的是什么。一天过一天的习惯，是时候改了。中学生涯，就只剩两年。

To Marcus>>> Your enthusiasm and thirst for improvement is much appreciated. Nevertheless, neutrality should be practiced at all times. After all, running is too hasty; crawling is too gradual.

To 美靖 >>> 对于即将远去的你，我感到忧虑。担心你会变坏或变得不受教。记住，聪明智慧是神给我们的礼物。不要滥用这份礼物，也不要过于重视这份礼物。毕竟，一山还有一山高。到了中学读书，不要忘记在高渊和美里默默为你祈祷的我们。

To 雪琦 >>> 很多时候，你都是停留在十字路口，不知所措。到了中二，新的一年，希望你能清楚去思考你自己本身的意义，并且提高对自己的要求。我希望你能有出淤泥而不染的一天。

这些都是我对你们的肺腑之言。然而，忠言逆耳，倘若有冒犯之处，还请恕吾如实相告之罪。 :)